If there is one life to live why can I not do what I please. 

Why the future holds so many opportunities yet it is the scariest thing out there , we spend all of our time waiting to get out of where we are at now and no one bothers to live in the now. I wish I could live in the now , enjoy myself , have enough motivation to do good in school , be nicer to people.

I spend so much time inside of my mind that I never try to bother doing anything . I need to change my attitude towards so many different things the past just has a way of crawling back as if it wants to corrupt you.

How do some people manage to look happy and afterwards actually achieve that feeling.